So my heart is totally racing. Let me explain.
We got our family pictures taken by my favorite local photographer. She is so stinking cute and fun to work with. They turned out breathtaking, except for one thing…me.
Now don’t get to think that I’m all anti-Jessica or anything I don’t have crazy low self-esteem or anything like that. I don’t have the problem that some anorexic/bulimic people do in the sense that they look in the mirror and all they see is fat no matter how thin they are. In fact, I have the opposite problem…when I actually take the time to get ready I look in the mirror and think to myself, “Dang girl…you are lookin’ good to-day!”
I had that exact thought when we left for our family pictures.
I got to see this one and I’m pretty sure my jaw hit the floor.
Everybody looked so stinking good. I loved the background. The lighting. The way my family looked. I even looked good. Except for one thing. I had no idea that I was THAT big. I really didn’t.
A talented photographer can make you look a few pounds thinner (I’m pretty sure my photographer did just that), but it would take a miracle worker or some serious photoshopping to take off 100 pounds and I knew that wouldn’t happen.
This picture will be a very special family picture for me. I plan on getting it blown up real big (or one of them from the shoot I’ll have to see the other amazing ones when they’re finished) and put on a canvas. It was what opened my eyes and let me see that I can’t stay this big. It’s the one that has helped to save my life, it drove me to realize that what I’m doing now is not working and I have been given an amazing tool that I haven’t utilized at all because I was being stubborn. My lap-band.
So tomorrow morning I will be going in for a fill. I’m hoping for an aggressive one. I did the slow and steady junk and gave up. So I’m taking this issue head on! I’m also starting Day 1 of a 3 Day juice detox. I think it will really help me in my cravings.
I’ve thoroughly researched a lap band diet. I’ve gotten some helpful tips from an amazing cousin who also had a similar surgery and that girl has rocked the weight loss tool she’s had and has lost a serious amount of weight and I’m ready to see what I can do!
Wish me luck! I’ll keep you all posted on the ups and downs of my weight loss journey and my new outlook on my lapband.
Wish me luck! At the rate I’ve been going…I don’t know if I’ll live to see my kids first day of Kindergarten, let alone their high school graduation. If you believe in God, I would really appreciate some prayers too. I know that with God, ALL things are possible. Even weight loss!