So my heart is totally racing. Let me explain.
We got our family pictures taken by my favorite local photographer. She is so stinking cute and fun to work with. They turned out breathtaking, except for one thing…me.
Now don’t get to think that I’m all anti-Jessica or anything I don’t have crazy low self-esteem or anything like that. I don’t have the problem that some anorexic/bulimic people do in the sense that they look in the mirror and all they see is fat no matter how thin they are. In fact, I have the opposite problem…when I actually take the time to get ready I look in the mirror and think to myself, “Dang girl…you are lookin’ good to-day!”
I had that exact thought when we left for our family pictures.
I got to see this one and I’m pretty sure my jaw hit the floor.
Everybody looked so stinking good. I loved the background. The lighting. The way my family looked. I even looked good. Except for one thing. I had no idea that I was THAT big. I really didn’t.
A talented photographer can make you look a few pounds thinner (I’m pretty sure my photographer did just that), but it would take a miracle worker or some serious photoshopping to take off 100 pounds and I knew that wouldn’t happen.
This picture will be a very special family picture for me. I plan on getting it blown up real big (or one of them from the shoot I’ll have to see the other amazing ones when they’re finished) and put on a canvas. It was what opened my eyes and let me see that I can’t stay this big. It’s the one that has helped to save my life, it drove me to realize that what I’m doing now is not working and I have been given an amazing tool that I haven’t utilized at all because I was being stubborn. My lap-band.
So tomorrow morning I will be going in for a fill. I’m hoping for an aggressive one. I did the slow and steady junk and gave up. So I’m taking this issue head on! I’m also starting Day 1 of a 3 Day juice detox. I think it will really help me in my cravings.
I’ve thoroughly researched a lap band diet. I’ve gotten some helpful tips from an amazing cousin who also had a similar surgery and that girl has rocked the weight loss tool she’s had and has lost a serious amount of weight and I’m ready to see what I can do!
Wish me luck! I’ll keep you all posted on the ups and downs of my weight loss journey and my new outlook on my lapband.
Wish me luck! At the rate I’ve been going…I don’t know if I’ll live to see my kids first day of Kindergarten, let alone their high school graduation. If you believe in God, I would really appreciate some prayers too. I know that with God, ALL things are possible. Even weight loss!
Welcome to my blog! I hope you enjoy your stay.
Supportive hugs to you. You are setting such a wonderful example for your children as you walk down this weight loss path. Know that if you stumble on the path, you’ll get up and brush yourself off, take your child’s hand and keep on going. You are one strong momma and you will do this. My prayers and admiration are with you.
Thank you so much! Your words painting such a beautiful, empowering picture in my mind. It’s ok if I stumble, I can just get right back up and take my little one’s hands and continue the journey forward with them. Thank you so much for your support and prayers.
I had a picture that motivated me as well…. it was hard to see myself as I really was, and not how I thought I looked, but it was also very good motivation. Now when i look back at that picture I can see how far I have come. Good luck friend!
Thank you so much! It was definitely eye opening! I’m excited for that time when I can look back and see how far I’ve come. I’m one day closer to that realization! Thank you so much for your support!
The whole weight thing is so hard! Best wishes and prayers to you as you strive to obtain health!
And thanks for being so honest. It really helps me as I struggle with my own body image and weight.
I couldn’t agree more1 Thank you so much for your wishes, prayers and support! You totally have mine as well!
You go girl! You are strong and totally got this:) love ya!
Thanks girl! Love ya too!
You are beautiful, inside and out, and I love you to pieces! I’m excited to take more photos of your sweet, sweet family and watch how far you’ve come! I am so proud of you, and will send a million prayers your way!
You’re so sweet Erica! I love you too! And you will definitely be taking lots more pictures of us!
I so appreciate your prayers and support!
The picture looks awesome and you look great too! I can completely relate to you though. Our last family photo mortified me. I had no idea I looked as big as I did and sure didn’t feel that big. I’ve been trying to be a bit better here lately but it’s definitely not easy. Wishing you lots of luck! =)
Thanks Kristin! It’s comforting to hear that I’m not the only one. I truly appreciate your support!
I have had that EXACT same moment of realization a couple of times in my life if I am being perfectly honest here. Your family looks beautiful and I am sure you will reach all of your physical and emotional goals in due time. We created lives in these bodies, so I say we love these bodies with healthy food, exercise and moderation. Best of luck! Can’t wait to follow your journey. You can see mine here: http://www.thebusymomsdiet.com/weigh-in-wednesday-week-1/
It’s so nice to hear that I’m not the only one. Thank you so much for your kind words and support! I’m so heading over to your blog right now!
I am so completely appreciative of your thoughts and your realization. I am so excited for you.
I had a similiar problem I saw my picture and thought “I am that big” and I started my plan in motion. I remember my excitement we I got under 200 pounds and kept losing. Once I got to a realistic weight all I could think was that I am so fat and I need to keep losing. Some people told me that I was looking good and others were honest and told me I looked too thin. I did not beleive them because my brain told me otherwise because of that fat picture. Then I saw a picture of me at a friends wedding and it hit me. “I am that thin!” Time to stop and accept that I am not going to have that flat tight skin that was present prior to having kids and that I looked great.
That is my story and I pray that you are successful and strong and have the willpower to be everything that you want to be. I also pray that you get that picture that tells you.”Okay time to stop!”
Love you! Good luck
Ashley